Well hey there! Remember me? I know I’ve been terribly MIA from the blog, but I’m back and will try to play catch up as best I can, though I’m so incredibly behind now. Hopefully you’ve caught some glimpses of our summer fun on Instagram in the meantime. I took the whole summer off, and we had an amazing time vacationing on the East Coast and West Coast, spending time at Disneyland, celebrating our anniversary and my birthday, starting some home upgrade/renovation projects, staying busy and enjoying the long summer days soaking up the sunshine.
I can’t even believe it, but this sweet baby boy of mine started his mother’s day out preschool program this week. I’m relieved to say it was a successful experience. Only one of us had tears [ahem]. No, it wasn’t me! OK fine, it was, but I did at least hold it together until I got back to the car after dropping him off on Day 1.
I made it a point to get him really excited about school the month leading up to his first day. We picked out the cutest backpack, lunchbox and nap mat. We read books about school (our favorites: Llama Llama Misses Mama and The Kissing Hand—both so good!). We talked about all the fun things he would do. But I totally neglected getting myself ready for this new transition because when the big day snuck up, this mama’s heart was not ready to send her baby off into the unknown.
C, however, handled it amazingly well with a sweet hug, kiss and “I love you, Mama!” before he walked right in and started playing with the green Play-Doh on the tiny toddler-sized table. I was so proud.
Ah, the bittersweet moments of motherhood. The holding on and letting go, the new milestones, the growing up way too fast.
I survived the first day by grabbing coffee and catching up with two friends who also have 2-year-olds at the same school, so it was a nice distraction from my worrying. I spent the rest of the day getting some work done … and checking his schedule compulsively to see what activity he was doing at any given time.
You know the weirdest part of that first day though? It was when I realized—way past lunchtime—that I hadn’t eaten lunch. Like I didn’t even remember to take care of myself because my priority is always to take care of my little boy. So then I found myself looking for something quick in the freezer and tearing up just a little bit all over again while eating my tortilla-crusted fish Lean Cuisine, realizing that this was the first time in as long as I can remember that I was eating lunch all by myself without C. It was a surreal feeling. Being a stay-at-home/work-at-home mom, we are always together, and a part of my heart was missing, and missing him.
I totally made him a fresh and healthy lunch though. ;)
One of the best things about the day was that I had a special surprise waiting for C when he got home. My dad got him this swing set awhile back, and I decided to get it installed while C was at school. He was so thrilled to see it and play on it!
His preschool program is just two mornings a week, and Day 2 was a little easier. No tears from either of us this time. :) His sweet teachers have eased the transition tremendously by sending pictures and updates about their day. I’m so thankful for this glimpse into his time learning and growing in a new environment. They stay so busy primarily learning through play, which is perfect, and his teachers said he had a great first week. He flashes me the happiest look when he sees me to pick him up, and his sweet “I missed you!” is my favorite part. And then we continue just where we left off, holding hands down the hallway, excitedly recounting his new adventures.